My Holiday Reasoning.

It’s Christmas evening and it was a very cold but sunny day in the Pacific Northwest. I am amazed at this year’s weather. In case you don’t know,….. last year we got slapped down by a snowstorm that by Wisconsin standards was a blink of a storm but in Portland, it was the main attraction!! The news anchors dubbed it “AB” –  The Arctic Blast of 2008!! It was pathetic really. 6 to 10 inches of snow and it was closer to six than ten! It shut Portland and most of the Northwest DOWN!  This year it was sunny, cold and a bit breezy. Tonight the breeze has gotten fierce! Raging up and over the windows, rattling them good. Last year I got stuck at the bar & grill I worked at….for 3 days & nights I slept in a basement back room that actually has a cot in it. Tonight was a much more merry of a Christmas than last year. I gave less gifts this year but not less love. I was given the same – (i.e. less gifts – more love). I look forward to next year because there is SO much change needed and desired. The formula for yearly transfer of old to new makes for a good chance of life imitating the change of old to new. I hope. The good I have is gonna bloom this spring and make for a fine summer feast. I hope to look back at this and say I was right!! D2

Smelling the Roses!!

I am writing about a hobby of mine I do not usually say anything about because I am not one of the people who get loud about it. I am talking about Football and of course College Football and to be more specific……THE OREGON DUCKS!!!!! In the civil war this year, they beat the Beavers by enough to go to the Rose bowl in Pasadena. The Beavers played a heck of a game and at one time I thought they might run with it. Running back James was a terror to the Beaver defense and we saw Boise knockout artist Blount come back on the field for the first time to make a 9-yard  touchdown run. The Beavers defense DID do a whopping job against Masoli leaving him no options most of the time and that in itself is an accomplishment! I will admit I had jitters 2 days before the game, wanting the Ducks to win so badly. Now they are going to the Rose bowl and I cannot wait for them to rip up the Boise state Bucs and bring the title back home to Oregon!!!!! D2

Additional Forms Coming Through.

The Pacific Northwest has great beauty. I have told my family back in Wisconsin and Michigan that and now I am working on posting some of it. It will be a minute though while I get the hang of getting the pics off the device and on to my computer. Don’t laugh! We all got to start somewhere and that is where I am. I want to show my adopted countryside some love because the home kins do not believe that I have become a “NorthWest coastian” by falling in love with it. The great lakes are that and nothing or nobody can take nothing from them. Everyone knows that. Northern Wisconsin and the U.P. of Michigan are tops in my heart for countryside beauty. I just want to give the lakes a peek at the side of country I hold dear as well. So keep peeking, it’s a coming. D2

The Bleeding continues to hitt home!

Our country has really been hurting and I have been feeling it. For over a year now, I have been sharing the pain from the wounds of the recession on families. I believe we are all family by being human. I live by the rule that I can be a sign of change to the direct circle around me with my actions & words and even reactions. That goes for everywhere I go. The part that now seems to be neglected some is…..I have not given that circle a full chance to be for me, what I desire to be for it. I find myself in need. I am hurting and uncertain more than I have been in a long time. It has all to do with losing the job I have come to count on to provide. I do not feel like I have to explain because most of us know what our jobs provide. I also do want to say that the depth of worry goes to a certain level only! On a personal level, I have a belief in God and Spirit. I know some of what my ancestors know and that seals much. On the physical level there is love, which is light. A foundation I can cling to and I do. When I have these changes of direction, I usually make haste and seek to catch my balance. That is natural. What I need to integrate is a pause. A period of reflection where things can become clearer. Even if it seems clear already what needs to happen. At times it may seem nothing will help. That is when we underestimate the reach we have with the right foundation. So this is my pause and I hope it’s reflection simmers on for a bit for I am not ready to step just yet. That will happen soon enough. D2

No Summer Weakling.

It has been fair and friendly. I enjoy having eighty degrees and a slight cool breeze. This week, it is going to hit one hundred and three degrees! Not normal for the Northwest by any account. The one week predictions are  for one hundred plus days times five. My ancestors are from the North and accordingly I handle the cold better than the heat. I end up taking far more time in preparation to endure. It gives me an uneasy feeling. Much like the thought of getting old does to the young at heart & body. I have lived in the desert before. Las Cruces, New Mexico to be exact! My first day it was one hundred and twelve degrees in the shade!  I am glad I was younger then. I find myself now needing to get out of the direct sunlight. I think this summer will be wonderful and the Pacific Northwest has great beauty to make each season stand out on it’s own. Now that July is ending, August will bring that summer furnace that I believe turns the leaves once it has had it’s run. The colors change as if to say “We lasted through the hot days & evenings to the cool of the night and this is the face of our attitude”. Just a thought. D2

Fourty What?

Now & Then

I am glad I do not remember that bloody day all those years ago. I am sure it was just as traumatic for me as it was for mom. I do remember feeling trapped as an infant because the swaddling cloth I was wrapped in was so tight, I could not move. To this day I cannot be strapped down without a feeling of complete terror! I once prepared for surgery and was on the gurney when I felt I was going to throw up. I was reacting to the anesthesia and turned to the side but without balance and tipsy, I almost dumped myself to the floor. When I awoke I was strapped down and as I realized I couldn’t move much or raise my hand, I became instantly frantic. It is the same feeling as being wrapped up tightly and it left me in panic! Maybe that is why I enjoy freedom so much? The freedom to go hiking, walking  or even just being fidgety(which I am at times). This anniversary was pretty cool and I didn’t mind having it. It is better now than it was 5 years ago. I want to see what 5 years from now looks like. D2

Sphere of Summer Sizzle.

Our Likeness?

Most of my mornings have spectacular pinks, orange and hues of red. Getting up early is not a problem anymore because of it. The Pacific Northwest is having an unusual wave of sunshine with temps in the 90’s, that reportedly has not happened since 1957! It’s usually still spotted with drizzle and moisture, liquid sunshine. Memorial day had our bright star demanding to be recognized as supreme. I also hear about a new cycle starting on the surface of the sun and have had some reservations about it. The effects can be felt and seen. Some will say that is hogwash but it only takes some television time to have some interruptions in  reception or in cell phone connections to see how true these cycle can effect our planet. I hear many people talking about our behavior causing future repercussions but I have felt past behavior effecting out present day. Particulars I have not pinned down but it is clear that the past has given us a “bump in the road”. I do feel the dealings of present day will impact future generations but feel that there are certain spots in our daily lives that are true tumors of sorts growing to impact future people. Tumors are not happy, whether they are benign or malignant matters not at first. As always, I am making changes to the world by affecting my immediate surroundings. That includes all relationships, personal and otherwise. I like to call it ” the sign of change”.  I would like to see everyone take a small step in changing their immediate surroundings for the greater good of all. Be it ever so small, together it will be great. Yes? Yeah! D2

Taxing my yin & my yang.

Spacefill

This hands out approach to the first decade of the new millennium is just not what I expected. I don’t want to play like that, nor do I want MY country to play like that! I feel the internal homeland security alarm (every Native American has) beginning to tremor. It has ceased it’s high pitch whistling. In my back seat driver way, I can see bad habits in the way we are being driven. Are they not there?? It does NOT matter which side of center you sit because the last chauffeur couldn’t hear and this one can’t see.  Those condoms of courtesy have pounced on the accelerator when the curves are at their worst. They have us lawfully strapped to  our safety seat. Unable to do a damn thing about anything. All the while softly humming a notable little tune soothing to none. The gen after the next will hate us more than you can imagine. Maybe we’ll learn a soft, calming tune to hum their fierce little tempers away…..huh?? D2

Feasting on Sun, Focusing on Fun.

April is giving a preview of summer and making me long for visitors of family. I have newborn nieces that I want to see. Getting a jump start on summer activities give me an edge. I want to ” get more” as they say. The financial season has been horrendous so I am making the other seasons memorable. Finding fault is so easy. As is throwing it around. I want to make this like a friendly potluck, where everyone contributes what they want. A recipe for good things. This month is opening the new season to move forward and ahead. Gaining strength & momentum to make this summer rock! D2

Seasoning for Summer

Spring fever on a string.

In the Pacific Northwest, we get true spring showers and I have been “showering” daily. The chirps of early birds makes the trip to work at 5:30am more less a chore. I even get a kick at the sheep dog type round up dance the male pigeon does in front of EVERY female pigeon he comes across. It reminds me of high school. When the summer comes, I am gonna dive in!! I’ll be dancing like a horny pigeon myself with all the beauty of our women here in Oregon. I can feel the season taunting me like a sugar starved diabetic. Saving my pennies and dimes. Hell, it seems like

Spring Flowers

that’s all we have anymore anyways. Come on summer…….lets play!!!! D2